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September 13th // journal entries 010

7:40 PM
By Kenzie
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September 13th, 2013

It's been two years since I saw you, held you. Two years. It's been so long, and I wish I could say that we made it after all that time, but I can't.
I can still feel your hand pressed against the back of my head as you held me in that parking lot. It felt to good, to have you hold me like you were never going to let go. But then it was time to do so and I couldn't stop thinking it wouldn't be the last- we will still have another time to hold each other.
That's all over now, isn't it? I'll never be able to hold you like I did that day, tell you I love you like I did that day, be with you like I did that day.
I don't blame you for what has happened, for all the things that have happened. I wish they didn't- gosh I wish they didn't. It hurts to look back at what we used to be and to look at us now. Everything has changed, and as much as I wish it would just go back- it won't. Nothing will ever be the same, except for the memories we made that day. I will continue to treasure them close to my heart, every single day.
Forever only exists in moments, it could last for days or just a second... Forever is more like a feeling you get... and, well, that Friday afternoon I had my forever.

Thank you. For letting it happen.

happy birthday Rose

happy birthday Rosie ♥

9:20 PM
By Kenzie
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Today is a very special day, because on this day, sixteen years ago-- at 12:29 pm-- my Rosie was born. <3 Yes, today is Rose's sweet sixteenth birthday! \(•-•)/

[ don't ask where I got this photo, just be glad I found one. •-• ]

"Happy Birthday to you,

Happy Birthday to you...

Happy Birthday dear Rosie,

Happy Birthday to you."

*sniffles* She's growing up so fast. But don't worry Rosie, we're going to be young together-- forever and ever! •-• Yeah, be jelly. *coughs and clears throat* Anyways... I would like to do the honors of telling each and every one of you 16 things I love about the one and only Rose. *grins evilly and rubs hands together* Let's get started, shall we?

1.

You are: AMAZING

Why? You always ask me that and I can never give you a good answer. You're just amazing, in so many ways. There's not one person like you, in a good way of course. I honestly love to look up to you. And I love all the things you do.

You are: BEAUTIFUL

Not just in looks, but in way you are.

You are: CARING

You care about my feelings and about me. I deeply admire that.

You are: WEIRD

Okay, I know what you're thinking and stop thinking that. Okay? Stawp. You are weird in the best way possible. It's more like even though when I'm weird you don't think I've gone crazy. We can both be weird with each other and I love that.

You are: FUNNY

One of the main things I really love about you is your humor. You make me laugh in the best way, and I just love laughing. Make meh feel good. •-•

You are: MY OTHER HALF

I swear, we were meant to be. •-•

You are: TRUSTWORTHY

I can trust you with honestly, anything. You are very understanding, which leads to the next one. •-•

You are: UNDERSTANDING

Even when I don't make sense whatsoever. •-•

You are: LOVELY

you are what it means. •-•

10.

You are: SWEET

11.

You are: INSPIRATIONAL

Just take a look at her blog, you'll know what I mean. •-•

12.

You are: [a] WRITER

And an amazing writer to be exact. <3

13.

You are: CREATIVE

You guys should see what she made me for Christmas, and if you don't believe me just check out her blog designs. O-O

14.

You are: [a] FANGIRL

Oh yeah baby, up top. (•-•)/

15.

You are: [a] FRIEND

My best friend. A wonderful friend. The kind of friend everyone should have. Thank you, for being mine. <3

16.

You are: YOU

You are the best you there could be, so be you and always be you. <3 Because I love YOU.

Rose my dear, you are a star. A star that I look up at and admire. There are over a million stars in the world, but none of them could ever amount to you, your star.

I could have gone on forever, but my mind isn't cooperating with me right now. -_- But I hope you had a special birthday, because you deserve it. <3

Happy Birthday Baby.

*hug attacks and glitter fights*

xoxo,

Kenz

HG buddies

i miss you

7:05 PM
By Kenzie
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i miss you.

like a lot.

i miss you more than you could ever imagine.

i miss your beauteous smile.

your warm hands.

your pretty voice.

your comfort.

you, i miss you.

it hurts, it hurts not to know when we could be together again.

because you're there and i'm here.

my hand is reaching, our hands are reaching. they're so close yet so far away.

they're grasping for a touch. for a feel.

to be intertwined with fingers.

my ears are longing, for a sound. a familiar yet strange [good] sound.

they want to hear, the voice to the person that makes me happy.

my eyes yearn to see that smile.

my arms long to be held in yours.

i, myself, deeply wish to be with your presence. again. and again.

because i [really] miss you.

thanks for reading this [mushy\cheesy] ~~post~~ rant.

dreams

I guess wishes do come true...

12:51 PM
By Kenzie
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have you ever wanted something so badly--wished for it even?

have you ever been so passionate about wanting a dream to come true?

everyday,

every night,

11:11

I stared at that clock,

squeezed my eyes shut,

and made the same wish.

over,

and over,

and over.

even on that very special day, I made the same wish...

and guess what?

9/13/13

that wish finally came true.

Yes,

On September 13th of this year I met-- IN PERSON-- this girl <-- yep, that's right be jelly.

My family and I drove about two and a half hours to meet at our "half way point". Rosie and I texted and fangirled the whole way there. •-•

After the drive, we then pulled into a Barnes and Noble parking lot and parked towards the back while Molly [ my dog ] looked around frantically, assuming we were going to just drop her off somewhere and leave. :P But of course, we did not do that because we love her so stinkin' much. •-•

As I stepped out of the car, I could not stop blushing or control that jittery feeling you get when it's Christmas eve mixed with nerves.

Once we walked inside I tried to keep myself "busy" with looking at books, but that failed miserably when I noticed my family waiting excitedly by the giant window near the entrance, trying to guess which car was Rosie's family car or whatever.

Finally, when the time came, I did not know what to do. So with that, I burst through the doors of le bookstore and into the arms of the most flawless girl I know, nearly knocking over her poor sister, then apologizing over and over again.

^^ which sorta looked like this. •-• *sniffles* Our first hug... [ Nice shot Morgan. ;) ]

So, after we did our little family introducing--and I admired Rosie's flawless outfit--we sorta just wandered around the bookstore talking about random things. Very random things thanks to my sister, Lila. •-• We had discovered that she is also an Awko Taco just like Rosie and I. Now, I think we shall form an Awko Taco club that hangs out in bookstores sniffing books for a living. O.o What do you think of that Rosie? •-•

^^ us, checkin' out "The Host" like a boss. •-•

Left to right: Me, Rosie, and Koren photobombing.

^^^ here we are ( such a cute photo <3 ) in a Chipotle parking lot, after we had eaten and exchanged gifts.
....pssst, if you look closely at Rosie's flawlessness, you will see some glitter on her head and sweatshirt from my youngest sister [ Koren ] and I. ;)

Both of us got each other "The Fault in Our Stars", except Rosie wrapped my book up in lovely green ( one of my many favorite colors ) tissue paper, and I sorta just left mine in the Barnes and Noble bag because I had just bought it an hour earlier. •-•
She also put a lovely heart note [ whatever you call it ] on my gift that made my day.

^^ I loved the #distanceproblems ;) Very beautiful handwriting my dear. <3

And here comes the saddest part [ insert dramatic music ] : The good-bye hug.

^^ and then here we are... embracing our final hug before our departure. *sniffles and wipes cheeks* Th-that was the bestest hug a friend could ever have. *sniffles* excuse me for a moment, I'm getting emotional. ...*cough* Neeli, stop photobombing. It's ruining the moment. •-•

We waved and blew kisses... then that was it. *sniffles*

You honestly have no idea how long we've been waiting for that day. We did not want to finish this year without officially meeting each other and even though we only got to see each other for like three hours... IT WAS TOTALLY WORTH IT. •-• Now... I MISS YOU SO MUCH IT HURTS! COME BACK BABY, COME BACK AND LET ME HUG YOU ONCE MORE! \(•-•)/ ...don't worry Rosie, I'll make sure I bring the rope with me this time. ;)

Now, I'm going to copy cat you Rosie if that's okay. •-•

*clears throat and begins to type*

Rose is a very beautiful person.

not just in looks,

but in her heart and mind.

she is beautiful.

if you ever have the pleasure to interact with her,

savor every moment of flawlessness you have with this astonishing soul.

because, she truly is a very special person.

especially to me.

I love you Rosie,

more thank you'll ever fathom. <3

Remember; If any of you are having a rough time and don't think any of your wishes would ever come true, think again. Mine did and I believe that your's can come true, too. Don't give up, keep wishing and dreaming and believing.

{please check out Rose's post here. }

things to accomplish in life:

meet Rose [check]
hug her [check]
tell her I love her [check]

thanks for reading. <3

September 13th // journal entries 010

happy birthday Rosie ♥

i miss you

I guess wishes do come true...

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