March was... *awkward chuckle* Not the best (productivity-wise). Or, at least, it felt that way. The last couple weeks have been confusing, if I may be honest. I have been questioning pretty much everything. Which has consisted of me asking myself this question, over and over again:
What am I even doing?
It's a confusing time in my life at the moment. I have so much I need to figure out, so much I don't even know how to figure out... And it all feels overwhelming. All my goals kind of just plummeted and at some point, it all just seemed... pointless.
Which stinks because I want this to be a positive community.
But I'm not perfect and not every day is going to be productive. So, I think I just have a lot more figuring out to do... *cliche eye roll* I guess I put pressure on myself. I look at all these amazing things that everyone is accomplishing and it makes me feel like: oh, I should be doing this and this NOW.
I don't mean to sound like I am complaining. Of course, that is not my intention. The reason why I express these feelings to you is because I like to be honest with you. And I like being able to reach out just in case someone else feels the same way.
I was talking to my beautiful friend, Anna, and she gave me some advice that I would like to share with you.
I don't mean to sound like I am complaining. Of course, that is not my intention. The reason why I express these feelings to you is because I like to be honest with you. And I like being able to reach out just in case someone else feels the same way.
I was talking to my beautiful friend, Anna, and she gave me some advice that I would like to share with you.
You are still young (no matter how old you are). Everything will fall into place. It might not work out the way you want it to but it might just work out better.
So, sometimes life doesn't go as planned and you might fail, but whatever does happen... there will be some sort of positivity that comes out of it. You just have to look for it.
And that's what I am going to do right now. Without further ado... Let's do this.
March Wrap-Up
WHAT I POSTED
Do you ever forget you exist?
Writing Problems | "Dark Forest" sneak peek
It's Okay To Not Always Love What You Love
Why Simon vs. The Homo Sapiens Agenda (aka Love, Simon) is Worth The Hype | Movie Reaction??
WHAT I READ
This month was actually pretty good for reading, if I may say so myself. ;) I did end up re-reading two books but it was so worth it.
Carry On by Rainbow Rowell
If you asked me what my favorite book is, I'd probably lie and say something like "I don't have a favorite" when, in reality, I'm mentally chanting "Carry On!".
*giggles like a kid on Christmas* Hehe, yeah... I read it again and loved it even more. Who knew that was even possible?? I am shamefully not ashamed.
Simon vs. The Homo Sapiens Agenda by Becky Albertalli
You all probably already know from my previous blog post that I read Simon vs. The Homo Sapiens Agenda again before going to see the movie and I loved it all the same! It was interesting to read it knowing who Blue is because then I could point out all the times Simon was so clueless. It's great.
Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe by Benjamin Alire Saenz
My lovely friend, Sarah, sent me this book and I am SO THANKFUL THAT SHE DID because I wasn't planning on reading this anytime soon. And allow me to say that it was so good.
You can read my goodreads review on it if you want to know a more in-depth reaction but I will say that this book made my heart ache in the most beautiful way. It was a deeper read, but in a good way. I loved it so much. I highly recommend it.
*is eagerly waiting for the sequel to come out*
Runaways issue #6 and #7
This is the first comic series that I am reading and so far I am enjoying it very much. (And so not because Rainbow Rowell is writing it. Pft. I don't have favorites. She said, her voice high and eyes, darting like crazy.)
WHAT I WATCHED
Love, Simon
Cannot. Talk. About. This. Movie. Enough. It was perfection. The cast and everything. Even the experience going to see it was breathtaking. I want need to go see it again and again and again.
I think I'm going for round 2 this week. I'm probably going to cry. Again. BUT I DON'T CARE BECAUSE:
1. Nick Robinson is the most awkward, adorable, beautiful human to exist. I'm not even going to deny that I love him.
And he is Simon.
2. I am also not going to deny that Keiynan Lonsdale is an absolute CUTIE.
That smile. I die.
47 Meters Down
Literally about two girls doing it for the 'gram. Did they not notice that the boat was super rusty??
When Calls The Heart
I've watched all the seasons so now I am caught up and I think I ship Bill and Abigail.
WHAT I LISTENED TO
Well, I'm so happy you asked because throughout the past month I listened to:Simon's Playlist (curated by Becky Albertalli, Nick Robinson. and Katherine Langford)
Love, Simon Soundtrack
Simon's Oreos (my playlist for Simon)
...Simon has really good music taste, okay?? Yeah, I'll shut up now. (Links are included, by the way.)
WHAT I WROTE
I wrote a blog post over at Coffee and Wisdom about Agatha Christie and her play, The Mousetrap. I'll be posting over there quite frequently so you should definitely check it out. ;)
I also worked on my short story some more but I recently hit a writing rut and I am currently pounding my head against a wall. (Not really but very close to.)
I am hoping that Camp NaNo will inspire me to get over this bump in the road. Which reminds me...
I am doing Camp NaNo!
I decided to do it at the very last second. I have never participated before but I am eager to see what it is like. I am not even prepared but who cares. (I do but it's whatever.) I even got assigned a cabin?? It feels like I'm actually at camp! Which is cool because... I've never been to camp.
Anyways. I'm not really putting a lot of pressure on myself to do it but I am using this as a chance to finally finish my short story and maybe GET OUT OF THIS UGLY WRITING RUT.
Anyways. I'm not really putting a lot of pressure on myself to do it but I am using this as a chance to finally finish my short story and maybe GET OUT OF THIS UGLY WRITING RUT.
Are you doing Camp NaNo? If so, what is your goal? I want to hear all about your project!
WHAT'S IN THE UP & UP
I should really be more prepared and take notes before I do these posts because now I am forgetting absolutely everything that happened in March. *grabs phone and looks through photos to see if it triggers any trace of memory*
Oh! Okay... I do have a few things to share. ;)
Spring cleaning!
I've been cleaning like a mad woman. I gutted my room and rearranged it. Including my mountain of books.
I also got rid of my desk because 1. my chair broke, and 2. it was too small anyway. So, I'm deskless but I might be getting bookshelves, which has been my dream since I fell in love with books.
I had oreo waffles!
And allow me to say that they were heavenly.
I won another goodreads giveaway!
I actually won it in December but the book didn't arrvive until... four months later. It's okay though because FREE BOOKS ARE AMAZING.
It's called Meet Cute and it is an anthology of cute stories by a bunch of authors, including Nina LaCour and Nicola Yoon! I'm thinking of maybe doing a review on it? LET ME KNOW IF I SHOULD.
It was Easter and I wore a yellow dress that my sister got for me.
Despite it having been 30 degrees.
I GOT AN ARC FOR WORLDS BENEATH!
The amazing Kate asked me if I would be interested in reading her second book to The Blood Race series and OF COURSE I SAID YES. I read an arc of The Blood Race last year and devoured it, so I am totally pumped to read this. I'm almost a hundred pages into it and YOU GUYS. You guys. You guys. It's been so worth the wait. I can't wait to review this book.
I've been working on my college applications.
I recently received some good news from a college of my choice. However, much of what I said above, actually, is related to the topic of "college". (It's a scary topic, in my opinion.)
I basically have the fate of my whole life in the palm of my hands and dude, I think that's freaking terrifying.
