Allegiant || *no spoilers*

**this post will not have any spoilers in it, just sadness. lots of sadness. but i am looking forward to maybe doing a book review where there will be spoilers and my opinion on the last book in the Divergent trilogy. 

Alright, so I have decided to do my Allegiant post now while I am semi-okay. 
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Why do I do this to myself? Why do I read these books when I know what that will do to me afterwards? 
I am so emotionally attached to [fictional] characters, people, animals, and anything else you could think of. I am also very sensitive. I cry to parts of a movie that aren't even that sad. Yes, I am a crier. I cry and when I do, it is not pretty. Last night, while\when I finished this book, I cried so much. I sobbed. I was hyperventilating. I. was. CRYING. That was the hardest I have cried in a very long time. 
I keep telling myself, even though it doesn't work, it is just a book. It's just a book, it's just a book. None of it is real. But that's not true. It is much, much more than "just a book". I fell in love with this series. I grew with the characters. I smiled when the character(s) smiled, I cried when it was time to cry for\with them, and I died right along with them. So don't tell me, not even myself, that it is just a book. I lived and died another life, just like all the other books I have read and will read. Like in that quote when it says: "A reader lives a thousand lives."
 I just lived another life and it won't be my last. 

And with that; I shall go cry and mourn until I am satisfied with the ending of this book, which won't be for a very long time or ever. *sniffles* I-it's over... OVER. *flashback of when I started loving these books* good times... good times...

I have no idea how to rate this book. I loved it and hated it. Part of me wishes I never read it. Veronica Roth, what have you done to me? O.o

Thanks for reading. <4


p.s. PLEASE SEND HUGS AND COMFORTING MESSAGES IN THE COMMENT BOX BELOW. I REALLY NEED ALL THE LOVE I CAN GET. O-O Thank you. <3 

p.p.s. *SOBS* I am emotionally unstable. O-O

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  1. Oh dear! Mackenzie, I am officially giving you an internet hug. *internet hug* I hope you'll feel better soon! :)

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  2. Huge internet hug officially going out to you!

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  3. Babe, I love you so much. I know exactly what you are going through. One of my friends who I had just introduced to the series when I began reading Allegiant is so baffled at my emotional turmoil. "It was just a book series," he says and it just kills me. I'm sorry, for an entire year and a half, these books were my life. And now they are over. Don't you dare try to make me feel stupid by reminding me it was a book. I don't care.
    Before I continue on with my rambling, I just want to say that I am so sorry that I cannot be there to give you a hug in person. I feel like a horrible friend. :(

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  4. You want a hug? Only one? ... *mischievous smile* ... How about one from every fangirl in your army? Does that sound good? Here's a portion of them:

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    Yeah. You should be good! <3

    xx Les

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  5. Oh Kenzie, I understand the torture you are going through, I promise I was the same way a few weeks ago when I read it... in a span of about 12 hours XD It hurts so bad, I cried, sobbed, screamed, and threw my book across the room, but it got better, I'm here to tell you honestly, that I feel better now, I still love and hate the book at the same time, it was beautiful and heart-wrenching, but I promise, you'll feel better with time, it just takes awhile, and fangirls to talk to help a lot, my friend and I actually had an intelligent conversation... the second time. *Gives you uncomfortably big bear hug and squeezes you super tight* I'm here Kenz, I'm here.

    xoxo
    Molly

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  6. I know its hard,but as Tobias said we can be mended NOT what the heck?! She killed me! Does she care that she killed her readers,I want to have a few words with that woman. I can't even....its soo hard,she left a pain in my heart that will never go away,a scar that will never heal.

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  7. <3 *hugses* Like I said on Rosie's post about Allegiant....I am questioning my original wish to read this book. haha! But I know I need to 'cause I have to find out what happens next! :D

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