*waves frantically and enthusiastically* Oh my gosh, hi!! ...I can't believe I haven't posted since last year.

Wild, right?

I know a lot of peeps enter the new year with goals and aspirations for all the things they want to accomplish, and I try to do the same... But there's one thing that I'm starting to live by and that is to do what I can and be okay with it.

And since I'm going back to school (hence new obligations and pressures) and there are always so many projects that I want to work on... I need to be a little more careful with the expectations I put on myself.

But there is one thing I've been working on...

Introducing Pizza Flower

What you should expect

What we want to accomplish

Where you can find us

Our Official Website

YouTube 

Pinterest 

SoundCloud 

Whoa whoa whoa, long time no see, eh? I have perfectly reasonable excuses as to why I have not published a blog post in almost a month. One of them includes going away for a super duper top secret mission (you will find out one day!) and the other includes being too overwhelmed to actually get on my laptop. So, like I said, perfectly reasonable. But anyhow...

Vanessa and I did a collab a while back about bloggers and all the things we do that you don't know about. We had so much fun chatting and relating to one another while working on that one so we thought we'd do it again! But this time with our personality type.

The mysterious, contradicting, but rare INFJ! 

If you're not familiar as to what an "INFJ" is, it is a MBTI personality type. And if you aren't sure what that is... You can go here to learn more!

We gathered up some topics for us to discuss but before we get into them, you must know... We are not directing this post to ONLY INFJs! Of course, if anyone can relate or wants to share their opinion, please feel free to join in on the conversation! 

But let's also explore a little bit of the inner chambers of the-- *insert spoopy music here* INFJ.

INSIDE AN INFJ'S MIND

Occasionally, when I'm out in public or in a social environment I get in a daze and I lose myself.

Sometimes I forget I'm even alive.

I know that sounds weird. I don't know whether it's a "condition" or if it's just how I am... but for as long as I could remember, I've always had these moments when I forget I am in existence. The best way I can explain this is like having an out-of-body experience and turning into the fly on the wall. I forget that other people can see me. I forget that I'm actually supposed to be communicating. I forget because I'm too busy observing and trying to figure people out. I suppose that is why I did a lot of staring as a child.

Sometimes I lose myself in people. 

Sometimes I look at people and I analyze them to the point where I feel like I have them all figured out (usually I'm not even close but we won't get into that now).

And I look at them. And if they're talking about themselves or expressing how they feel, I begin to acquire those emotions and I feel as though I am them.

Sometimes I am a sponge and I absorb emotions.

I think that is why I lose myself in books. I become so invested in the story because I feel as though I have become that character. Their story becomes my story and when I've finished the book, it takes me a bit to dive back into reality before picking up another one.


Absorbing emotions isn't always a good thing. I find myself getting sucked into negative emotions just as easily as the positive ones. It seems daunting that I am unable to take full control of my feelings when I have this sort of ability. It is, in fact, rather daunting.

But I feel like it makes me understand humans better. I am able to give them empathy for the good and the bad. I suppose I should think of it as a superpower.

Sometimes I get so invested in the life around me that I forget I belong to this very world but sometimes I like that. It's like an escape from the realities of life and I can observe from the distance, where I am comfortable. 

TALK TO ME!

Have you ever felt this way? OR AM I THE ONLY ONE? Do you have a superpower? What is something that sets you apart from everyone else? Let me know! I want to hear your thoughts. Thank you for reading! 

xx Kenzie

Lately, and far too often, I find myself feeling angry (even anxious) over certain things. Typically, they are things that are just out of my reach. Sometimes I feel like I'm not being heard or I don't understand what I am feeling and it forms into this ball of negative energy until I snap or break.

Why is this?

I'm a person who has a very difficult time understanding how I feel. I don't know what it is that I'm feeling until it's either too late or two years later. Oh, so that's why I was so nervous. Duh. 

Needless to say, it's frustrating. Sometimes I try to voice what I'm feeling and it comes out all wrong. And other times, I contradict myself by saying: "Never mind, I'm actually good. Let's forget we ever had this conversation. Hey, want some pizza?"

As an INFJ, I'm a naturally contradicting person. I'm hot AND cold all at the same time. And I think this makes it so hard to understand what you are feeling and how to interpret and understand why you feel the way you do.

WHEN YOU FEEL ANGRY

Anger is something that boils up inside you and wants to spill out. It's hard to control. It's even harder to control when you hold it in- because once you do that, it's more likely to explode.

The best thing to do is tame it. Kind of like taming your dragon. At first, it may seem like an angry beast that wants to eat your whole family when, in fact, it actually just wants to cuddle. o-o So, the best thing to do is befriend your anger. Ask it questions: Why do you feel this way? When did you start feeling this way? What happens when you start feeling this way?

Sometimes I snap when I get angry. Sometimes I yell. Sometimes my cheeks burn a bright shade of red to match my hair. And it makes me feel guilty. I shouldn't feel this way. I'm a happy person. Why do I feel this way? Well, #spoiler: not everyone is perfect. Plus, it's completely normal.

Embrace it

The best thing to do is accept what you are feeling- even if you don't know what it is- and embrace it. Let yourself know you are feeling these emotions, whether you like it or not, and you just gotta accept it.

Let it out

Here's are some ways to let out your anger in a composed manner:

Don't let it control you!

TALK TO ME!

What do you do when you're feeling angry? Or upset? Or anxious? Has there ever been a moment when you let your feelings get the best of you? Thank you so much for reading and allowing me to express my thoughts. I feel like a huge weight was just lifted off my shoulders. SO THANK YOU, FRIENDS. <3 

xx Kenzie