retour au passé - journal excerpt

"I love you." She whispers into your hair.
You say it back, but she feels the uneasiness that has taken over your body. Pulling away, she studies your face in the orange glow of the dimmed lighting. "I mean it," you say truthfully. "But we'll destroy each other."
Her eyebrows pull together and you bite back the urge to smooth them apart. “How?” Her voice is small, innocent, like a child’s. She doesn’t know. She doesn’t know the hurt that you both have endured will eventually consume you both. She doesn’t know that it will leave you gasping for air as it piles up until you can no longer hide it. Until there is nothing left. Until you are strangers.
“Your love will no longer run as deep as it does in this moment.” You finally say. The words spreading acid on your tongue once they leave your lips. Your mouth and eyes burn.
“No, no,” she says, touching your hair, touching your face. “It won’t happen. I won’t let it.”
You break.
Your hand finds her’s and she squeezes your fingers. There will be nights when your heart breaks over the thought of that simple action. “We can’t stop it.” You choke. “We’ll love each other apart.”
She cries and you hold her, and she holds you as if it could hold onto the moment before it becomes a memory of two people who used to used to be a universe.
Before the world decided they were too much.

It used to be us and the world and now it's you and me and the world between us.

5 Books to Read in the New Year

I've been on a reading binge lately,

so I thought I'd share with you some of the books I am reading in the New Year.

That TBR pile tho.

Okay, you may already know that I like to buy my books. Some may think of it as a waste of money, but personally, I think it's a way of getting on that Hoarders show. Amiright? Plus, you get to own all the books you've read! Don't get me wrong, the library system is pure genius. It's just not for me.
What does this have to do with anything? Well, I'm glad you asked!
...I have no idea. I think I just wanted to show you what my physical to-be-read pile looks like.

These are only some of the books I plan on reading this year. The reason why I am showing it to you is because I am determined to finish these books this year. Shall we check out some of the one's I am eager to get my nose into?

1. WE WERE LIARS by E. Lockhart

After waiting three years to get my hands on this book, I finally got it. And I already finished it!
I'm still a little unsure on how to rate this. I mean, the writing was everything. I had no idea what to expect from this book. It was different but in a good way. And allow me to say that I totally predicted the "truth". Well, part of it. Can I get an awkward high five? Yes? No? Maybe?

2. DOROTHY MUST DIE by Danielle Paige 

This is what I am currently read. My brother got it for me back in the fall and I've finally gotten around to read it. Which I'm glad because I LOVE IT. Like, I had no idea I'd like it this much. o-o I've never been a huge fan of The Wizard of Oz or modern day remakes of fairy tales, but I am really enjoying this. *cough* Nox *cough* heart eyes *cough* sigh.

3. CROWN OF MIDNIGHT by Sarah J. Maas

I recently finished Throne of Glass and let me just say: *makes grabby hands at the second book* GIMME GIMME GIMME! 

4. HEIR OF FIRE by Sarah J. Maas

*cough* Team Chaol *cough*

5. LADY MIDNIGHT by Cassandra Clare

*insert deathly fangirl like screams here* ... I cannot wait to read this. I want to finish Clockwork Princess (I know, I am so ashamed of myself) before I start Lady Midnight. But can we talk about the cover for a minute? OH. MY. GOSH. I can't even what there is to even. <3

Thanks for reading my bookish update.

Let me know some of the books you are reading this year. I'd love to hear from you. 



My family and I went away for Christmas this year, to some place as cold as the North Pole. This was our very first time not being home on Christmas Day, so I thought I'd share a few of the moments I captured along the way.

It was our dog's first vacation, which was very interesting. It consisted of whining, not eating her kibble, and sniffing everything. Though she kept my poor mother captive in our cabin, it was a delightful trip. (Besides the cramped car ride there and back- where I may or may not have lost feeling in both of my feet- various times- as well as my bottom.)
One of my favorite parts of the trip was the gorgeous bookstore that was placed directly across from the Starbucks on Main Street. Now, as you can see from the outside, it had beautiful charm. For some reason, I assumed that it was an old, probably used bookstore, with aged trinkets. But that didn't stop me from going inside. I immediately fell in love when my eyes spotted some of my favorite reads (which made me realize they did, indeed, have a Young Adult section!) and the art supplies that encased a huge section of the tiny bookstore. There were cute cards and journals that a writer would fawn over. It was not a dusty old bookstore after all! It was much more than that. AND Holding Up the Universe was displayed in their window case! If only I had an exact replica up the street from my house, then I'd be elated to grab myself an application. 

Although I am already talking your ear off, I'd like to share with you the Blogger Yearbook I'm in! If you wanna see an awkward yearbook quote from moi and some epic things that happened in 2016, check it out. ;)

Thanks for popping in. I hope the new year brings you good, my friend. 


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