Untamingly Introverted | What You Don't Know About Introverts


Hey, guys. So, um, I've been keeping something from you. I've had this blog for four years now and it just doesn't seem fair that I've held this in for so long. So, I think it's time that I've shared this with you. Okay, so here it goes...
*deep breath*
I'm...
An introvert.
But you probably already knew that.
But in case you didn't...
I am an introvert. 
And there are things I do that maybe other introverts (or introverted extroverts) can relate to.
What is an introvert, you ask? If you Google the term, the definition that pops up is "a shy, reticent person". Oh, but there is so much more to that.




Introverts value their internal environments. This is the place where they get their energy from. As an introvert, I am constantly thinking about what I will be doing in my alone time.

Introverts Like To Be Productive 

This doesn't have to apply to everyone, but I feel as though a majority of introverts value their productiveness, and they like to do it alone.
Me: *being productive*
Person:  Hey, need some help?  Hey, I see you're working really hard at being productive right now, so I'm just going to leave you alone to accomplish your goal of extreme productiveness. We shall chat later (after you're finished being productive).
Me: *thumbs up*


Introverts Can Get Lonely 

Of course, none of these things relate to everyone. Each person is different, extroverted or introverted. However, I feel a certain stereotype that could get loose. Just because introverts prefer to be alone, does not mean they don't get lonely! In fact, (and I think I read this somewhere) introverts tend to crave a stimulating relationship with someone. Perhaps not with a group of people, but they like to have a few peeps around.
Me: Hey, can you sit with me while I work on this?
Person: Sure!
Me: But pretend you're not there.
Person: Okay...?
Me: Thx.

We Tend to Love With Every Ounce of Our Soul 

I don't know about you guys, but I tend to get emotionally attached to people...
Person: *holds door open for me*
Me: Our firstborn will be named Noah Ryder and we will have 12 dogs.

I'm sure extroverts love deeply as well! But if any introverts can relate to this, lemme know.


Yes, We Like to Talk. No, We're not Going to Text First

I don't know about you, but when I talk about something I love to talk about (books), there's no shutting me up. You see, introverts can be talkative. I mean, we're not totally reclusive and anti-social (those people are typically serial killers). We can be friendly! But I will say this, I'm definitely 100% not the first texter type of person. 
Me: We have so much in common. 
Me: *doesn't message said person whatsoever*
Me: I don't understand why we don't talk more. 

I just simply refuse to be the first text, and I don't do it on purpose. 



We Like to Travel

Sometimes I just crave to travel. Somewhere. Anywhere. And it's weird because I love to be home. But I do believe introverts can crave this sort of need to be out in the world. I know I'd love to just discover new places all while being invisible to everyone in it.
Me: *wants to go places and meet new people*
Also me: *doesn't want anyone to know I exist*

Of Course, I'd Love to Come! As long as I Can Stand in a Corner and Observe

 Yes, we want to be invited to the party! Yes, we want to go out for coffee! And try on dresses at the mall! But once we're out, there's a certain craving lingering in our minds that says "I cannot wait to get back home".
Me: *gets out of house and has fun*
Also Me: *thinks about what I want to do when I'm alone*


Our Rooms Are Our Sanctuaries 

Parent: Go to your room.
Me: Finally.

There are things introverts do that surprise you. There are things introverts do that surprise themselves and make them question "am I really introverted?" (but as soon as you get home, you know you're fine).

We Like to be Around Extroverts

My one-year-younger-sister is an ENFJ, which makes me laugh because I am an INFJ. And what screams "sisters" more than that combination? Anyways. We're like two peas in a pod. You want her, you get me. You want me, you get her. But the thing is, introverts need to have an extrovert around to maintain the balance of nature. 

Talk to me!

Tell me some things that you do as an introvert or extrovert! Can you relate to some of these? What kind of pizza do you like? Are your socks pink? Hi.  

Pizza Wallpaper + Printable


Is it just me or is April slipping right through my fingers? It seems to be moving faster than that roadrunner cartoon character from tv. Amiright?

My mind seems to be all over the place lately. While I love to mutitask, my brain can't seem to focus on one thing at a time. And it is #stressing me out, yo.

I've been working on some things-- can't tell you yet because it wouldn't be a surprise-- but here is a little somethin' somethin' to keep ya'll entertained while I continue to get stuff ready. ;)

What really helps me stay organized and less stressed is when my phone/computer is lookin' fresher than fresh. So, I thought I'd help you guys out and share with you a matching lockscreen/desktop wallpaper I made. :)

Lockscreen Wallpaper 



Desktop Wallpaper 


Want to print and hang 'em on your wall?


Click to Download Lockscreen Wallpaper (Free)


Click to Download Desktop Wallpaper (Free)


I hope you enjoy these! Maybe show them off to the fam on Easter? ;) Happy Good Friday! Hope you have a lovely Sunday. <3

xx


what is stronger than such organ? | journal excerpt


Hearts don't break;
they crumble
and shatter.
Hearts don't break;
they get shoved
and sliced into,
resulting a maximum of various components.
Something that breaks
can be repaired.
Hearts don’t break;
they jab their wounds
with every intake
and exhale.
Hearts don’t break;
they detonate.


Yet, they manage to survive.

Fake it 'Til You Make it


You guys think I have it all together? lol, psych-- I don't.
I'm messy.
I'm an obsessive organizer, but yet... I. am. messy.

I've noticed that humans are a very manipulative species. We're kinda like birds when you put a blanket over their cage and they think it's nighttime so they fall asleep. I even do that with myself. Sometimes when I'm not sleepy but it's late, I try to turn down the lights a create a comfy, clean atmosphere so my mind "thinks" I'm sleepy. It really works.
We can convince ourselves to like or dislike something. To do or not do something. To believe or not believe in something.




We can convince ourselves that we are capable. 


I like to pretend, in case you haven't noticed. But let me tell you, pretending isn't so bad. Sometimes I pretend that I have everything under control until I actually believe that I do.

Lately, I've been dealing with this overwhelming feeling (I actually started crying because of it. #dontjudge). But with some help... I took a deep breath and started over. By pretending that I was on top of everything, I was able to tackle important tasks.

I believe you can, too. 


All you gotta do is convince yourself that you are capable and then you'll become unstoppable. Easy, peasy, lemon squeezy. (Okay, maybe not. But you have to tell yourself that or otherwise, it won't be. Eh?)

So, whenever you feel like everything is falling apart or you can't do something-- just pretend. If you're having a bad day, pretend to be happy until you actually are. Even if it doesn't work, it's worth the shot.

Want to do things you don't think you're capable of doing?

this video is worth 16 minutes of your life


Talk to me.


What are some ways that help you stay motivated? I could use some tips!

xx

My New Mindset - Life Recaps

Throughout the month of February, I developed a new mindset with zero intentions of doing so. As a person who has trouble with procrastinating, I found myself saying "yes" to doing more. Honestly, this past month has been non-stop go go go, do do do! I'm just waiting for my crashing moment when I simply cannot even what there is to even. You feel?

But it hasn't come yet.




I've just decided not to think about something and just do it- especially when it comes to things I don't enjoy doing.
Thus, I've had my hands full lately. I'm not used to being busy. What "busy" is to me, may look like a regular day-in-the-life for you. But I'm rather proud of what I have been accomplishing, or what I've been trying to do.

How about a little life recap to get this post rollin'?



Did I start something new?

Yes, yes, yes! I started and finished The Sun Is Also a Star by Nicola Yoon (aka, one of my new FAV authors), and I started Crown of Midnight by Sarah J. Maas (THIS BOOK WILL BE THE DEATH OF ME #TeamCaptainofTheGuard).

I also started watching a new show on Netflix with my brother called Miraculous: Tales of Ladybug and Cat Noir (THIS SHOW, YO. #CatNoirIsaBabe #sorrynotsorry). I'm also trying to keep up with The 100 season 4 on TV, but I'm gradually slipping. I'm not very good at keeping up with shows- even if I love them to death. It's better when they're all in front of me on Netflix.

Did I do something new and slightly terrifying?

Yes! I volunteered at my church's pasta dinner (which was super crazy and super fun). Who knew putting bread and butter on paper plates then watching pretty boys play basketball could give you a whole new love for life?

I also went to Anthropologie with my mom where I bought two overpriced items. Despite the fact that I hate a.) spending too much on one item, and b.) paying full price... I have zero regrets. Even when the cashier said the aesthetically pleasing yellow book was on sale. (It wasn't.)

Am I getting closer to doing something I am afraid to do?

Ehh... Still working on it.

Have I accomplished more than I've wanted to?

I'd say so! I mean, there are so many things I want to do, but I think I've done a lot more than I intended to.
I developed a new note taking method (aka, actually taking notes) and I'm trying to figure out if it'll help me with this class. We shall see... I just hope I'm not wasting my time (one of my top fears).
I started spring cleaning my room, which I usually DREAD doing but I pushed myself to finish. And yes, you heard me correctly on the "spring cleaning" part. The weather up here has been insanely warm (then cold, then warm again), so the whole fam has spring fever.
Also, I feel as though Valentine's Day was just yesterday but I'm pretty certain that was when this new mindset started. I made about 13 Valentine's this year. Despite the fact that I would've liked to make more, I'm very proud of what I got done.


What is one great thing that happened to you?

The Everything, Everything movie trailer. Go. Watch it. NOW. ...I cried. (There's picture proof.)


Started any new projects?

Wouldn't you like to know? ;) *cough* Yes, as a matter of fact, I have. BUT I AM NOT GOING TO TELL YOU- MUWHAHAHA! I am very excited about this new project I am trying to work on. I haven't been able to do much, but I am very very excited about it and I plan to share with ya'll soon. ;)

I also started writing a book that I started back in 2014,. I'm going to change the plot and whatnot but use the same setting idea. How do you guys feel about kingdoms in faraway lands with witty princesses, cocky princes, and evil kings? ;)

Were you able to post this month?

Yes, ma'am. Clicky here to read it.

How are your emotions?

Erm. Ah. Eh. Hm.

Does the word "college" still give you the utmost amount of anxiety? 

Why yes, yes it does. Thank you for your concern, but I'd rather talk about pizza now.

Do any adulting?

You betcha! I took my sister to the orthodontist all. by. me. lonesome. self. I may have made an accidental turn on the way there, but nothing a little parking lot U-turn couldn't fix.

I also spent one sunny afternoon roaming around in our village with my siblings + cousin. We ended up in the library, playing Pictionary. It was fun. My team lost. I tried spaghetti ice cream for the first time. Yes, spaghetti ice cream. It was heavenly.

Then I spent a really long time in Barnes and Noble with my sister yesterday. We split a red velvet cupcake together, looked at travel books, and walked around the store 1000000+ times. We only ended up spending about $26 altogether (because I got my other sister a birthday present), which made me view the day as: "Not Having To Spend Money To Have Fun".


I think saying yes and getting things done as soon as possible is great, but I don't think you should overwhelm yourself. I often find myself consumed with the thoughts of "Oh, I have to get this done!" and "I'm so busy" and "So much to do, so little time!". I particularly don't enjoy those thoughts... But if you feel better about yourself at the end of the day, then I think you should start saying "yes" more.

Thanks for reading. <3


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A quote to get you inspired 



hands - journal excerpt


Sometimes she thinks about your hands.
Not in the way one may think about someone’s height or what size shoe they wear.
No.
Sometimes she thinks about your hands in the way they look- long and fierce, soft and gentle. How they hold pieces of you.
Your hands are part of you, in a way that describes how you feel and who you are.
Sometimes she thinks that your hands still hold the person you once were; in the webs between your fingers, and along the lines in your palms.
But-
The upper layers of our skin create new cells every two weeks. It’s been so much longer than that. Our skin no longer remembers one another. Parts of her can’t help but think that your hands still recollect the small moment you two had with each other- that they might actually remember her.
The way it felt to have your fingers intertwined with hers; and how she regretted pulling them away instantly after they did.
Are those recollecting feelings- hand in hand, skin on skin- actually memories for our bodies alone?
Sometimes she thinks about the way your palm pressed into her back while you hugged each other. Sometimes she thinks about how that very action expressed so many emotions: safety, protectiveness, strength, kindness, and affection.
Sometimes she thinks about what would happen if you put your current selves in that same position; when you held each other as if nothing else existed. Would your hands still touch the way they did? Perhaps, if they do remember one another. If not, would your hands remember how to hold hers and reach out for them like they did when she wanted them to, so badly?
Sometimes she thinks they might.
Sometimes she thinks she thinks- hopes- they are the only thing left that hold what was once between your souls.

I don't know you anymore.



6 years | Blogging Through the Ages


It's the first of February and you know what that means... It's my blogger self's birthday!*

*DISCLAIMER: As you read this post, pretend it is yesterday (February 1st) and you are in the same state as you were this time that day. Mkay?

Today, six years ago, I decided to create my very first blog and join the blogging community. That simple action has taken me on this crazy, beautiful, blessed journey through my life. I have changed so much since then but I still continue to be part of the blogosphere (do you kids still call it that?) to this day.
Speaking of change... I thought it would be interesting if we were to reflect upon the person I was through those six years.
Yeah, I was going to "roast" myself in a positive way, but I couldn't do it without actually roasting myself so I thought I'd try this.

What six years of blogging really looks like:


2011

I thought the perfect birthday gift to myself would create a blog (after I had stalked a billion other blogs), so why not start it on a date that is easy to remember? Haha, well guess what, 2011 Kenz? You forget every. dang. year. 
I literally remembered while I was trying to fall asleep last night. (Always count on sleep to remember important things for you.)
That year my blogging style was post-a-bible-verse-once-a-day-and-talk-non-stop-about-life-and-American-girl-dolls. While starting a conversation with every internet encounter who was a.) my age or younger, and b.) liked American Girl dolls as well.

Moving on.

2012

My prime time. Ah yes, that was the year my blogging style changed drastically from doll photoshoots to fangirling and living/breathing over The Hunger Games. I discovered Instagram that year so my blogging journey had taken a little hiatus.  

2013

My real prime time. This was the year I was totally, completely, utterly in love with life. Hence, my happy place. I finally got back into blogging, and boy was I glad. I had a gorgeous blog design (two, actually) and regulars who commented on my once-a-day posts ('sup fam). Those posts consisted of me fangirling over Rosie's face 99.9% of the time. The other percent was dedicated to her left thumb. Bless that work of art. Another itty bitty percentage was fangirling over books and posting pictures I found on Pinterest (with credit, of course).

2014

My posts became deeper, I think? I went on another hiatus and when I got back, I was on my third design (the one I currently have). I began blogging a bit until I went on, you know it, another hiatus. 

2015 

Of course, I came back. I always do. That year my posts got even deeper and I began focusing on inspirational/motivating writing. 

2016

Last year I began focusing on more collaborative projects. And let me just say that collaborations are FUN.

2017

Six years later, I am still here, writing to you all. I feel as though my blogging style has changed, but not too drastically. I mean, I still laugh at the lame comical remarks I put in almost every post. This year, I suppose, I want to keep up with what I have going on now but strive to be better at it. Meaning, I want to help make my blog grow. 

Thank you to everyone who has stuck with me through my blogging life. I couldn't have done it without you. <3 But before I go, how does a little life update sound?

Life recaps:

- I finished three books in the month of January.
- My love for pizza is still growing.
- I GOT BANGS. Ever since I saw this picture over the summer, I had been wanting bangs. I was still hesitant on the idea due to my skin type (and the fact that I don't like it when my hair is in my face) but I got them and I am in love. The bedhead and styling are something I need to work on, but I feel like this was the right decision. *slips nerdy glasses on* I also feel more like a professional blogger. *winks at crowd*  
- I'm volunteering at our church's pasta dinner this month. (My inner Italian is screaming.)
- I had a hay day at Michael's last week. I got art supplies for my Valentine's day cards, and I am very excited to get started on them. (If only my homework could just wait to be done. Gosh, so demanding.)
- I am no longer a teen.
- What?
- Yep, you heard me.
- I'm sorry, what?
- I know, it's pretty hard to believe. I haven't felt more like a teen than I do now.
- So yeah. It was my birthday three days ago and I am now a mystical 20-year-old. I AM SO OLD, YOU GUYS. LIKE, I CAN LITERALLY FEEL MYSELF MELTING. DOES THAT MAKE ME THE EVIL WITCH OF THE WEST? OH NO, I'M OLD AND A WITCH!

Alright, I better leave now before I go into another mid-life crisis (I've had about 10 already, so it's nothing new). 

Talk to me...

How long have you been a blogger? Has your blogging style changed over the years? I wanna know. Thanks for reading. <3

xx 

retour au passé - journal excerpt

"I love you." She whispers into your hair.
You say it back, but she feels the uneasiness that has taken over your body. Pulling away, she studies your face in the orange glow of the dimmed lighting. "I mean it," you say truthfully. "But we'll destroy each other."
Her eyebrows pull together and you bite back the urge to smooth them apart. “How?” Her voice is small, innocent, like a child’s. She doesn’t know. She doesn’t know the hurt that you both have endured will eventually consume you both. She doesn’t know that it will leave you gasping for air as it piles up until you can no longer hide it. Until there is nothing left. Until you are strangers.
“Your love will no longer run as deep as it does in this moment.” You finally say. The words spreading acid on your tongue once they leave your lips. Your mouth and eyes burn.
“No, no,” she says, touching your hair, touching your face. “It won’t happen. I won’t let it.”
You break.
Your hand finds her’s and she squeezes your fingers. There will be nights when your heart breaks over the thought of that simple action. “We can’t stop it.” You choke. “We’ll love each other apart.”
She cries and you hold her, and she holds you as if it could hold onto the moment before it becomes a memory of two people who used to used to be a universe.
Before the world decided they were too much.

It used to be us and the world and now it's you and me and the world between us.



5 Books to Read in the New Year

I've been on a reading binge lately,

so I thought I'd share with you some of the books I am reading in the New Year.


That TBR pile tho.

Okay, you may already know that I like to buy my books. Some may think of it as a waste of money, but personally, I think it's a way of getting on that Hoarders show. Amiright? Plus, you get to own all the books you've read! Don't get me wrong, the library system is pure genius. It's just not for me.
What does this have to do with anything? Well, I'm glad you asked!
...I have no idea. I think I just wanted to show you what my physical to-be-read pile looks like.


These are only some of the books I plan on reading this year. The reason why I am showing it to you is because I am determined to finish these books this year. Shall we check out some of the one's I am eager to get my nose into?

1. WE WERE LIARS by E. Lockhart


After waiting three years to get my hands on this book, I finally got it. And I already finished it!
I'm still a little unsure on how to rate this. I mean, the writing was everything. I had no idea what to expect from this book. It was different but in a good way. And allow me to say that I totally predicted the "truth". Well, part of it. Can I get an awkward high five? Yes? No? Maybe?

2. DOROTHY MUST DIE by Danielle Paige 


This is what I am currently read. My brother got it for me back in the fall and I've finally gotten around to read it. Which I'm glad because I LOVE IT. Like, I had no idea I'd like it this much. o-o I've never been a huge fan of The Wizard of Oz or modern day remakes of fairy tales, but I am really enjoying this. *cough* Nox *cough* heart eyes *cough* sigh.

3. CROWN OF MIDNIGHT by Sarah J. Maas


I recently finished Throne of Glass and let me just say: *makes grabby hands at the second book* GIMME GIMME GIMME! 

4. HEIR OF FIRE by Sarah J. Maas


*cough* Team Chaol *cough*

5. LADY MIDNIGHT by Cassandra Clare


*insert deathly fangirl like screams here* ... I cannot wait to read this. I want to finish Clockwork Princess (I know, I am so ashamed of myself) before I start Lady Midnight. But can we talk about the cover for a minute? OH. MY. GOSH. I can't even what there is to even. <3

Thanks for reading my bookish update.

Let me know some of the books you are reading this year. I'd love to hear from you. 

xx

25.12.16

My family and I went away for Christmas this year, to some place as cold as the North Pole. This was our very first time not being home on Christmas Day, so I thought I'd share a few of the moments I captured along the way.




















It was our dog's first vacation, which was very interesting. It consisted of whining, not eating her kibble, and sniffing everything. Though she kept my poor mother captive in our cabin, it was a delightful trip. (Besides the cramped car ride there and back- where I may or may not have lost feeling in both of my feet- various times- as well as my bottom.)
One of my favorite parts of the trip was the gorgeous bookstore that was placed directly across from the Starbucks on Main Street. Now, as you can see from the outside, it had beautiful charm. For some reason, I assumed that it was an old, probably used bookstore, with aged trinkets. But that didn't stop me from going inside. I immediately fell in love when my eyes spotted some of my favorite reads (which made me realize they did, indeed, have a Young Adult section!) and the art supplies that encased a huge section of the tiny bookstore. There were cute cards and journals that a writer would fawn over. It was not a dusty old bookstore after all! It was much more than that. AND Holding Up the Universe was displayed in their window case! If only I had an exact replica up the street from my house, then I'd be elated to grab myself an application. 

Although I am already talking your ear off, I'd like to share with you the Blogger Yearbook I'm in! If you wanna see an awkward yearbook quote from moi and some epic things that happened in 2016, check it out. ;)

Thanks for popping in. I hope the new year brings you good, my friend. 

xx



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