FEAR



As of recently, my brain has engrossed in the topic of... fear.

Our whole lives revolve around fear and all the complications that come with it. No matter how big or small you are, there is always something you are afraid of. Even tigers have fears. Even villains have fears! Basically, we all have fears, and I believe that it is important to identify those fears once they surface.

Why fear, you ask? Well, I'm happy to answer that for you. Fear isn't something that appears vividly, it often takes a while to uncover the hidden components that make up that trepidation. And it took a while to let it hit me, but I actually realized that I am so afraid. Of what? Everything.

And yes, that may be an exaggeration. And yes, I'm not afraid of certain things today that I used to be afraid of, but it seems that fear has its way of finding me.

First of all, there's the fear of life- which you'd assume that could sum up all those annoying components of fear (because, you know, one fear leads to another which leads to another one and so on), but that is not how it works.

The fear of life leads to the fear of the future. Which consists of the following fears: getting a job, living on my own, paying bills, going to college full time, managing time, etc.
Then there are the fears that are just mentally exhausting. For instance; the fear of getting hurt. There's also the fear of being rejected. The fear of disappointing. The fear of noise. The fear of being insignificant. The fear of being significant. The fear of loving and anger. The fear of letting go. The fear of not existing to another. The fear of falling for someone new. The fear of them falling for someone new. The fear of hurting you. The fear of regret. The fear of being replaced. The fear of blaming myself. The fear of being alone. The fear of not being alone. The fear of sadness and overwhelment. The fear of being ignored and annoying. The fear of change. The fear of not changing. The fear of not being enough. The fear of failing. The fear of being known. The fear of being unknown. The fear of being mocked. The fear of being disliked. The fear of being flawed. The fear of my flaws being visible. The fear of loss. The fear of attachment. The fear of being creative. The fear of writing. The fear of wasting time. The fear of doing. The fear of... fear.

So, there are a lot of fears out there. I have a lot of fears (those above were just some of them). They are my anchors, and not in the best way. They stop me from making the right choices, or any choices for that matter.

The best possible thing someone with an abundance of fears is to identify them and be like: "Hey, that scares me but it's okay because I identified that fear."

Once your fears have become identified, it will now be easier to control them. Fears do come and go, but what helps while they have made themselves comfortable inside our brains is to go: "Okay, I'm going to go do something that is utterly terrifying, and I know you don't like it but you don't have a say in what I do. Mkay?" And usually that just makes them pack up and leave. Some of them are stubborn, yes, but if landlords can do it, you can too.

What are you afraid of? Identify your fears and be totally okay with it. Do NOT let them control you. You got this. They're only temporarily. But you... You're here to stay. ;)

xx 

Holding Up the Universe

Hello my lovely readers. Long time no see, eh? Actually this is a quite shocking turn of events. Two posts in less than two weeks? We must be in the Twilight Zone! Anywho... Remember in my previous post when I mentioned that Jennifer Niven (author of All the Bright Places) sent my sister and I an advanced reader's copy of her new book... Holding Up the Universe?

Well, guess what everyone? I finished it! And now, I'm gonna write you all a review.


Holding Up the Universe Review 

by Mackenzie Rae (spoiler free!)



Holding Up the Universe by Jennifer Niven is about a boy named Jack and a girl named Libby. Jack and Libby are alike in some ways, as they discover throughout this story. Jack Masselin has swagger. He is more popular amongst his peers, unlike Libby, but he also has a secret. He can't recognize faces. It is a cognitive disorder called prosopagnosia, which means he has face-blindness. He is able to see facial expressions, however he unable to know who the person is without looking for their identifiers (i.e. hair, posture, voices).
While Jack has adapted to his secret disorder, he still encounters complications that come with it. This is where Libby comes in. Libby is known as "America's Fattest Teen", she had been shut off from the world for most of middle school, until now. With her spunky attitude and her strong desire to twirl, she plans on living up her high school expectations.


Throughout the book you will definitely become fully attached to these characters (along with Jack's youngest brother, Dusty), because that is what Miss Niven does to us. She not only made me attached to the characters in this book, but she also made me feel what they were feeling. Their pain became my pain, and their excitement became mine.

This book is definitely a fabulous pick-me-up read. I couldn't stop smiling the entire time I was reading it. The characters are beautiful and funny! I laughed and giggled to myself whilst sticking tabs on almost every page. Even though this book doesn't come out until October, it is a great summer read! What I loved most about this book was how easy it was to have a look inside Jack's brain and truly understand what he must be going through with prosopagnosia. Miss Niven made me feel as if I were Jack himself. Yes, he's a jerk. Yes, he does some stupid things. Yes, he's gorgeous. But does he make up for all that? You'll have to read and find out. ;)
And Libby was just as amazing. She's so spunky and inspiring, and if it's okay to say... aggressive. ;)

I totally recommend this book to people who have read All the Bright Places and other books like Eleanor & Park, Paper Towns, and other contemporary favorites.

Now, I didn't get paid to rave about this book to you all, or even write this review. I'm doing this because I want to, and because you all need to pick up this book when it comes out. It's different but not too different, the characters are original but easy to relate to, and it's not too hard to understand. I cannot wait to buy the actual book when it comes out, I am definitely going to read it again.

When I finished this book, I had this warm, fuzzy feeling bouncing around inside me that just made me wanna go:

(warning: extreme fangirling ahead)

EEEEEEEEEPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ASDFGHJKL: JACK, YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. LIBBY, YOU ARE JUST AS BEAUTIFUL AND SPUNKY AND I WISH I WERE YOU! AND DUSTY, OH DUSTY, LET ME SWADDLE YOU IN A BLANKET AND KEEP YOU SAFE FOR ALL ETERNITY! OH OH, NOW I WANT TO TWIRL! LET ME TWIRL! OH JACK, YOU CAN TAKE ME OUT ON A DATE ANY TIME YOU WANT. NO WAIT, TAKE LIBBY. PLEASE JACK, TAKE LIBBY AND MARRY HER AND HAVE CHILDREN AND BE BEAUTIFUL! ALSO, HAVE YOU ALL SEEN THIS FLAWLESS BOOK COVER?! I MEAN, IT'S JUST SO EYE-PLEASING, ISN'T IT?

... Now, all I need is a sequel and I'm completely satisfied. ;)

P.s. Guys... Jack named his car just like Finch did. o-o


That concludes my review! I really loved this book, I hope you pick it up, and when you do, give me a holler. I'll be there to squeal, giggle, and twirl with you. Ugh, I wish you all didn't have to wait until October. I want you to read it now. 

I hope you all have a lovely day. <3

xx 

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