feelings

Pang.

Did you feel that?

Pang. 

That ache, the pain. 

Pang.

The clawing at your heart. 

It wasn't suppose to matter, but it did, and now you feel stupid. You want them to go away, the feelings that you feel. You're a baby, everyone would say. That's so stupid, and you would agree. Because now you are shamed by the way you feel, and that is not okay. You can't help the way you feel. Yes, it's true, it isn't your fault for feelings and things that either matter to or bother you. Don't let anyone allow you to think that you should be ashamed of the way you feel. Even if it's someone/something that hurt you. Even if you're jealous about something, do not let anyone tell you that is it stupid or make you feel that it is stupid. You are your own person, and you are allowed to feel things. Never wish to feel nothing at all, because in order to feel happy or to feel good about things, you need to feel the bad in order to feel the good. That's how life works, and we need to accept that.

Never feel
Ashamed
For the way you feel. 

xx Mackenzie 

six words.


"And I'll Never Be Good Enough."

xx Mackenzie 

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Teen Idle

Marina and The Diamonds - Teen Idle 

"I wanna stay inside all day
I want the world to go away
I want blood, guts and chocolate cake
I wanna be a real fake"

I LOVE HER VOICE LIKE SO MUCH. <3 

Thanks Rosie for another obsession. •-•

xx Mackenzie 

holding onto forever.


I held onto you
but you didn't hold tightly
enough for me to pull you back
why didn't you stay?
I didn't intend for you to go away
because forever felt like a long time
up until you left.
forever only lasts for so long. 

---

thanks for reading. <3

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The Sunshine Award (finally)


'For bloggers who positively and creatively inspire others in the blogosphere'

I got about four or five nominations... Wow, I know. So I apologize if I didn't mention your name in the following list below. 
Thank you;
Thank you to everyone that nominated me! I feel so special. :}

The rules:
1. Thank the blogger that nominated you and link to her blog.
2. Nominate other bloggers and let them know on their blogs.
3. Answer a list of 10 questions.
4. The Sunshine Award button must be posted on the blog.

The 10 questions (you can either answer these questions or make up your own 10 questions and answer those):

1. Your favourite quote?
I have a lot. But; "My thoughts are stars I cannot fathom into constellations." -John Green

2. Would you sacrifice your life if it would save that of a stranger's?
Honestly, it depends. Not on the person but the situation. Yes, I would take my life for a stranger's, but would I have time to think fast? That's the question. 

3. What is your latest goal?
I suppose to have goals. Because, well, I'm terrible at keeping goals. 

4. Who's your special Valentine this year?
Wouldn't you like to know. ;) ... *cough* Mine was books, so... yeah. #BeJelly

5.  What book are you currently reading?
Right now I'm reading A Separate Peace by John Knowles for school... But I'm going to start reading The Truth about Forever by Sarah Dessen and The Mortal Instruments: City of Ash by Cassandra Clare. 

6. Do you play an instrument?
Nope. 

7. Are you crazy?
If I said yes, then I wouldn't be. But if I said no, then I would be. So... 

8. Books or movies?
BOOKS. 

9. Biggest fear?
I have been asked this so many times, and almost each time I question my fear. I have narrowed it down to: Losing someone I love. Or the thought of being alone. Those are quite terrifying to me.

10.  Favourite memory of school?
Um... the one when I didn't have to start school yet? just kidding. But probably when my sister, Lila, and I were in like 1st grade and our tutor "published" these books written by us. That was pretty cool. 

I nominate:
And... anyone else that hasn't/wants to do it. :) 

thanks for reading. <3 

Six Word Story

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I wonder what 
happiness feels like.

***

i'm not trying to copy you, Rosie, i swear.

Little Things

One Direction - Little Things 

"I know you've never loved 
The sound of your voice on tape
You never want 
To know how much you weigh
You still have to squeeze into your jeans 
But you're perfect to me." 
Harry Styles

"You'll never love yourself half as much as I love you
And you'll never treat yourself right darling, but I want you to.
If I let you know I'm here for you
Maybe you'll love yourself like I love you, oh."
Niall Horan

***
I know, I know. Almost every Monday I seem to post a One Direction song. I can't help it though! 

I remember when I found out about this song and fell in love with it. <3 

In life, I'm the type of person that looks closely at the Little Things. They matter to me. 
ex: If you asked me to name something I know about you, I wouldn't start off with the fact that you read or write or play some kind of instrument... I would say something like; 
"Your name reminds me of a flower on a warm spring day. You use smiley faces at the end of all your texts. You use a fair amount of milk in your cereal. You stay up late at night even if it's not a Friday, making me wonder what keeps you up. Knowing that you hide things only to yourself." 

Remember to love yourself and the Little Things. <3 

xx Mackenzie

What You Wanted


OneRepublic - What You Wanted

"I'll find the places where you hide
I'll be the dawn on your worst night 
The only thing left in your life
Yeah I would kill for you, that's right."

Yes, this is the song from The Fault in Our Stars trailer, and now I can't even listen to it without choking back a sob. 

Enjoy. <3 

xx Mackenzie 

..wow... [ i feel like i've used this title before ]

This week has been pretty crazy. For one thing;


THE FREAKING TFIOS TRAILER CAME OUT AND I HAVEN'T SLEEP WELL SINCE.

Like, I honestly cannot breathe now every time I see something related to the book/trailer. I cried twice while watching. Perfection, John Green. Perfection.

This movie will be the end of me, I swear it will. I can't even... Everyone, I am in love with Augustus Waters and I do not care if you say he is fictional. I am in love with him.

Now to add more feels to my level of feels, One Direction came out with a freaking music video!

Oh boys, you've done it again. •-•



Alrighty, now last but not least...
[ this is not my photo but it is my edit, so please no stealing even though it isn't good. ]

I am now seventeen! *gasps* Shocking, I know. My birthday was on Wednesday, January 29th. Besides missing the fact that I will never be sixteen ever again... I had a really great birthday. Thanks to my siblings, my mom and dad, everyone that wished me a happy birthday, and most of all... Thanks to Rose. She gave me the bestest birthday gift ever. She made me an amazing video, and I wish I could share it with you but it is private. Like literally, YouTube won't let anyone see it but moi. ;} Don't I feel like a lucky duck... [just kidding]. My sister, Lila also made me a video. I cried. Yeah... it touched me. Thank you Lila. <3

People-- more like my sister, Neeli (who by the way, just got a blog so you should click on her name and follow her because she is my sister after all.) ask me what it is like to be seventeen on my birthday. I mean, was I suppose to change overnight? O.o I sure hope not. o-o

Well, again, thank you to everyone that wished me a happy birthday. It honestly meant the world to me. :) <3

I miss you all so much! Hopefully I will be posting more soon. >.<

xx Mackenzie 


P.S. HAPPY BIRTHDAY HARRY STYLES. <3


P.P.S. wow, this post was a mouthful.

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