writing problems.

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sometimes I just hate it when I'm staring at a blank screen.
nothing comes to mind.
there isn't a word I can find.
I'm stuck.
just stuck.
my mind is trapped,
my fingers are unable to make motion.
I can't focus with all this commotion;
why is it so hard?
why can't I do it?
why can't I be like the ones that can't stop writing for the sake of their life?
was this meant to be?
why am I questioning myself?
I want that passion,
I try to convince myself that I have it.
what if I don't? 
what if it's not my calling?
what will I do?

why can't I have that passion?

I want to write. 

***

thank you for reading this slightly annoying and very boring post. <3 


five facts about me [ #6 ]

::five three facts about me::

one- I don't play any sports. Sometimes I wish I did, because I'd like to be part of a team. but oh well. 

two- I own an iPhone 4s with SIRI!! I don't use her that much, I kind of feel bad about that... maybe I should check up on her?  *walks into other room* ... *walks back in* I told her I loved her and she kept telling me the weather. -_- and this is why I don't check up on you! \(O.o)/ 

three- I am the type of person that would dwell on her problems. *sighs* 

***
Okay, well there are five facts that are actually three facts about me... I just thought five facts were a lot and I'm having a hard time coming up with facts about me. O.o *le sigh* 
okay, that is all.




waiting.


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sometimes I feel like I'm the only one.

don't you just hate that feeling when, 
everyone is doing something... new things are starting, plans are beginning,
and then there's you.
stuck. 
trapped. 
condemned. 
and you just sit there, and wait.
and wait.
and wait. 
for something, 
yet there's nothing. 

ever feel like you're waiting for your life to begin?
or just waiting for something?
anything?

all I do is feel like I'm waiting. 

but when does the waiting end?
is there something I'm waiting for? 
how will I know when it's here?

is there something I should be doing? 
how will I know what to do? 

I guess there's only one thing I can do.

wait.

wait.

and wait. 

be patient \\ good things will come


Thank you for reading. <3 



One Direction - Stand up

Okay, to help my One Direction feels [ they are too the roof ] , I will post a song dedicated to my 5 lovely lads. 


One Direction - Stand up 

*sighs dreamily* oh how I love this song... 

" I know your heart's been broken but don't you give up 
I'll be there, yeah you know it to fix you with love
it hurts me to think that you've ever cried. "

thank you for listening! :) 

Xx Elegant Blogger Award xX

'ello darlings! Guess what? 
The lovely Anna and amazing Emma both awarded me for the Elegant Blogger Award. 
Thank you lovelies! 

Okay, so since it is a Elegant blogger award, I think it would be fair to type in everything while the little voice inside my head speaks in a British accent... so with that, you all have to read this in a British accent. >:D Muwhaha, I know... I'm evil. Alrighty, shall we start? 




THE RULES
  • When you receive the award, link back to keepcalmandsparkle1099.blogspot.com and the blog that nominated you 
  • Display the award button in the post
  • Answer all of the 12 questions given in this post (Do not make your own questions)
  • Nominate 12 bloggers
  • Notify them that they have been awarded

THE QUESTIONS

1. What made you decide to start blogging?

Well, *taps chin and sips lemonade* it 'twas 2010 I believe when I found out about "blogging". I found some American Girl doll blogs and at the time I was utterly obsessed with American Girl dolls AND I liked conversing with other people ( I am not a creeper ), soooooo... yes, that was the reason why I decided to start "blogging". I still own the doll blog, but I am coming to my senses and I really think I should delete it. For my sake only. 

2. What is your fashion style?

erm... artsy? Uh, comfy. VERY comfy. Also, a bit preppy sometimes... I guess I'm just going to stick with comfy. :P 


3. What is something none of your followers know about you?

hmm... *takes another sip of lemonade* well, what do you guys not know about me? I don't really know... there's not much to tell anyways. I guess you can say that I am somewhat different in real life. 

4. What are some of your blogging goals?

hmm... probably just to inspire people and get 100 followers. :} but I am pretty content with the amount of followers I have at the moment. I never thought I could get this far! Thank you all. <3 I am eternally grateful. ;) 


5. Where is your favorite place to shop?


My favorite place to shop? um... I don't have a favorite I suppose. Do bookstores count? If so then, Barnes and Noble. 

6. What would your ideal amount of blog followers be?

I don't really know... I suppose around 100, but like I said, I am very content with the current number. :) 


7. What are your talents?

em... drawing (I'm pretty good at mimicking something), photography, writing-- but I am getting a bit discouraged on that "talent", I'm not really sure  if I should count it as a talent. :P Mmm... I guess that's all. 


8. Are you a leader or a follower?

it really depends I suppose. I guess I would say I'm a follower? I don't really know. 

9. What is one of your favorite quotes?
Oh boy! This is a hard one. I have so many... but a lot of the time, I don't have any? If that makes sense... I just forget who most of the quote are by. I guess I will just do my most recent favorite quote. 

"You can love someone so much...But you can never love people as much as you can miss them."
 -John Green


10. Do you have a favorite book or book series?

Oh gosh! You just had to ask me this, didn't you? I am just going to answer "yes" because I love a lot of books and a lot of series. Erm.... but I suppose my top top favorite is The Hunger Games trilogy, so yeah. 



11. Out of all of the synonyms for elegant, which would you describe yourself with (smart - stylish - dressy - graceful - dainty - fine)?

em... I don't really know. Maybe my Cookies can answer that one for me? 


12. What is your favorite flower?
idk about you, but I'm loving me some Rose. <-- get it? bwhaha, I'm so funny. :P Not. 


Okay! Now it's my time to award! XD Oh boy, this will take a while... 

My girly @ Truly. Madly. Deeply
Aimeebob @ The Princess Corner!
Kayla @ Laugh 'an Love
Priya @ Priya Kate 
Emma @ Simply Inspired
Sarah W. @ A Free Mind
Heather @ I'm a Jesus Chick
Maddi @ Real. 

now, I gotta go tell everyone. >.< 

five facts about me [ #5 ]

::five facts about me::

One: Sometimes I really just love sarcasm. But then sometimes it isn't all that great when you're talking to someone that takes things seriously. O.o 

Two: Something I despise: Animal Cruelty. UGH! I hate it so much. I cannot explain to you how much I hate it... I-it just makes me so mad. My aunt and uncle have a dog they got from the shelter that was abused and now he is terrified of everything. Though, they take real good care of him and it makes me happy to hear how excited he gets when they go to the beach. :] So, he's much better now. But it makes me sick to think someone could do that to an innocent animal. <-- I'm sorry, now I'm ranting. :P 

Three: I love comfy clothes! If I ever have to go out, when I come back I usually just slip into my Pjs. :P It's like the best feeling ever. <3_<3 

Four: I don't make friends easily. #introvert  

Five: I am Irish! XD Well, part Irish... I am also part Italian. :}

Okay, well that's all! Sorry if I bored you to death. :P I'm starting to run out of facts to give you guys. O.o
Maybe I should start shorting my facts to three facts instead of five... I will call it;
 five that is now three facts about me. <--- hehe. :P I'm just hilarious. .-. 

k.

bye. 

P.s. THANK YOU ALL FOR 52 FOLLOWERS :D I'm SO happy. Love you guys. <3 

"Where to?"


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"Where to?" the man in the yellow cab asked me as I climbed inside, out of the pouring rain. 

"Uh..." I couldn't think of a name, so I replied with the first one that came to mind. 

"That's all the way over on the other side of town, are you sure you're suppose to be traveling this far alone, ma'am?" 

I nodded in response, not daring to look him in the eye. 

"Okay..." he sighed unsurely and started the car. 

As the car gradually started moving, I combed my fingers through my wet hair. How did it get so knotted? 

"Do you have family on this side of town?" the cab driver asked me after a few moments.

"Um, yeah..."  I managed to say and he nodded in response. 

I turned my head and gazed out the window. Raindrops smashed against the glass as I pressed my hand to it. 

Where will I go? 

What will happen next? 

 For most of the ride, the cab driver kept quiet. I didn't mind, silence was always my favorite. Even though I haven't had much of it these past years. There was something about quietness that I enjoyed. Something that made me feel so... alive. 
I felt the stone from underneath the tires as the car drove up the wet gravel path. The sky still owned its dark gray clouds, but the rain somewhat lightened up. A few raindrops sprinkled onto my cheeks as the cab driver--whose name I do not know--rolled down the passenger side's window. The grass was still green, but brown patches covered the spots between each headstone. Every once in a while you could catch a glimpse of color from the flowers placed by a spot where someone's loved one now lays, resting in peace.

"Here you go, ma'am." the cab driver said, stopping the car. 

I weakly smiled a thanks, then remembered something.

"Oh, here." I dug through my tattered change purse. 

ten... five... fifteen...

"It's okay. This one's on me." I looked up and saw the cab driver glancing at me through his rearview mirror.

"Are you sure? I'm just a penny short--" he waved me off before I could continue. 

I smiled and stepped out of the car. 

"I hope you find what you're looking for." the man said before driving off. 

Then he was gone, in a matter of seconds. I wondered what his life was like. Did he have a family he went home to every night? Or did he live alone, in peaceful fright? Maybe he traveled, and this was only a temporary job?
I shrugged off the thoughts and started up the gravel path, leading to a tree on the hill. I must hurry before the rain comes back, because I know it will. It always does. 
There were a few black crows on the tree at the top of the hill. If it were any other day, I would have scared them away. But not today.
 I knelt down next to the smallest stone at the top of the hill, then reached inside my pocket for a small token that I've been carrying around for who knows how long. 
Gently, I placed it onto the stone and studied the angel imprinted on the small token. She looked happy and graceful. Something I could never be. 
After a few silent moments, I spoke.
 "I should have forgiven you, but I didn't and I'm sorry." 

Silence. 

"I guess, what I wanted to say was that... I forgive you. I will always forgive you. I was never upset with you, I was upset with... myself. " 

More silence. 

"I get it, you're mad at me. And I know that I haven't been here in a while, I should've come sooner." 

I looked down. 

"I just couldn't." I could feel the tears forming into my eyes as I tried to wipe them away. But they came anyways. 

"I couldn't find the strength to come again, not after what happened." I sniffled and quickly wiped my cheeks. 
Everything was quiet for a little. It was like the whole world froze in time. As if I was the only being left. Alone. 
There was a crack of thunder in the distance, then I knew it was my time to go. I sighed and stood up, leaving the token in its place. 
I started back down the gravel roadway, but turned around one last time. 

"I'm sorry." I whispered softy. 



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TA DA! I finally posted a short story\scene. It's been a while since I last did one. :P Did you like it? Was it dramatic enough? Too dramatic? Okay, well... I hope you liked it. :} I apologize for any mistakes. 





"don't let me fall."

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don't let me fall,
don't let go.
I know it's hard,
sometimes you need to take it all.
I don't want to drown,
I don't want to shatter,
feel myself go,
all the way down.
far 
far
down.
here is where things begin to blow.
don't let go! 
falling,
torn,
shatter.
here is where it begins.
I don't want to be alone.
will you stay?
all the way?
don't let go.
down,
down,
down.
here we are.

don't let go. 


hold my hand \\ don't let go

yay & nay [ #5 ] | | rant

::yay::

- for the nays

::nay::

- for the yays

^^^^
yeah, pretty much sums up my week. 

Okay, *sings* rant timeeee!!!

[ that is not the definition of YOLO ]

When I was young(er) I used to... well, not hate... but I used to think teenagers were, well, teenagers. I did not want to be one, because that meant starting to grow up and acting all bossy... blah blah blah. But really, teenagers sometimes act more like little kids than little kids do! Trust me, I've seen it. And you wanna know what is so unfair? 

The playgrounds. 

Yup, I said it. Don't you all agree that the playgrounds in parks are just a slap in the face? They have the monkeybars that are the same height as most of us, so pretty much, we're walking while holding onto something above our heads. Hey, that actually might help us get better posture from sitting in bed on the internet all day-- and now I'm getting distracted. But seriously, don't you agree with me? The only thing teenagers are allowed on, are the swings at the park. Which isn't such a bad thing, because I love swings. :} 
I was talking with my brother and I think one of my sisters ( I forget )  the other day, and we were saying how they should have a playground for big kids\grown-ups! Wouldn't that be so much fun? Now we don't have to get our faces slapped anymore! *cheers* yay! ... this rant about being a teenager is now turning into a rant about playgrounds. O.o *le sigh* Well, my point is... um, what is my point? Does anyone know?
 I think what I'm trying to say is that teenagers are the most misunderstood people. We are expected to still act like kids but then wanted to grow up? I've had my mom tell me one day "Why don't you play anymore?" and then the next "You need to grow up." but how am I suppose to grow up when you said you don't want me to right yet? Sometimes I understand her point, but you're going to have to let go of me a little bit if you want me to grow up. And I'm not saying I want that, but it just makes it more reasonable. ...and I am probably not making sense whatsoever, plus this rant has nothing to do with the picture above. SO, with that, rant over. 
I'm sorry, I just needed to get that out. :P And I am also sorry for this post being a day late... I was suppose to post it yesterday and I didn't. #lifeofaprocrastinator

Until next time! :) 

I don't want to grow up || but I have to  

P.s. ...a lot of my posts on here are about growing up. O.o 

five facts about me [ #4 ]

::five facts about me::

One: When I like something, I get obsessed with it very easily. O.o Which is kind of annoying... 

Two: When I was little, I used to be a total DIVA. I liked the attention... but now, I am the total opposite. XD

Three: I compare myself to others. I'm always trying to be like someone else, which is what I tell you guys not to do. So I'm sorta a bad person. Sorry. 

Four: I have like this small obsession ( here we go with more things I am "obsessed" with! ) on notebooks. 
•-• I really like the cute covers. Okay, well I pretty much have an obsession on school\art supplise. I love paper, pencils, notebooks, binders, folders, etc. But, yeah...  •-• 

Five: I must warn you to never talk to me late at night... I get really weird and goofy. And the sad part is, I find myself humorous.... it's true, ask Rosie.


Is it me, or are these getting boring? Or maybe I just find myself boring... Oh well! I hope you enjoyed this very late/short post. :} Talk to me! Tell me how you guys have been! :D 

okay, I'll stop now. ADIOS!! 

"BEST. TAG. EVER"

'ello my cookies... 
Well, guess what? The beautiful, amazing, wonderful Sarah tagged me on her blog! And might I add that this was a very fun tag. Thank you Sarah


1. If the main villain of your favorite book/movie/TV series showed up on your front doorstep, what would you do? (Explain who it is first...)
okay, this is so hard... I don't know who to choose?! Either President Snow from The Hunger Games or.... Sarafine from Beautiful Creatures. They're both very, very, very.... EVIL. erm, I think I will go with my first choice. President Snow. 

If President Snow was at my doorstep, I would probably be creeped out. Knowing him, he would only be there to convince me into doing something... or threaten me... Idk. But yeah, I don't really know what my reaction would be. O.o My inner fangirl would probably come out like this: "YOU! You are evil. Do you even know what you did to him? To me? To everyone!?!?! I hope you choke on your own blood" <-- literally. •-•


2. Now supposing the heroes opposite this villain showed up just after your exchange. What would you do then? My reaction: "ASDFGHJKL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! KATNISS IS THAT YOU?!?!?!?! PEETA, LET ME RUN MEH FINGERS THROUGH THAT GORGEOUS BLOND HAIR OF YOURS! ERMEHGAWSH I LOVE YOU. I JUST LOVE YOU. ...by the way, would you like some tea?" <-- sorry for the caps. •-•

 3. So...moving on, the heroes defeat the villain (with some help from you, of course-whatever it may be. ;) But the next day, you're just walking along, minding your own business, when you suddenly come across the same villain...who is now lying in the dust severely wounded and unconscious. What do you do? 
Oh gosh! Why did you have to do this to me? Ugh, this is so hard because I wouldn't want him to die because of me... but he does deserve it. Just sayin'. I'd probably call the police then have them handle the rest? •-• Idk, man. Idk. OR... I could pretend I didn't see him? O.o 

4. Now his minions show up and kidnap both you and him and take you to their universe (or version of your universe, whatever it happens to be.) Your reaction? 
"NE-VER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" <-- with some thrashing of course. 

5. Your fantastic heroes have arrived to rescue you-but now you're faced with a choice. The villain, out of gratitude for your earlier help, (assuming you actually did help him when he was wounded) has offered you a chance to travel back to your own universe. However, the heroes warn you not to trust him. The only other way for you to get back home is to travel with the heroes on a long and dangerous journey... and there's no guarantee that you'll survive.
What. Do. You. Do.
Uhh... HEROES!!! But I have to ride on Peeta's back the whole way. •-• I have to... <-- creepy much? 



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Sorry for my awkward answers... 
I TAG:
anyone that wants to do this! :D I hope you all do it because this really is the best tag ever. ...Did any of you sing the One Direction song "Best Song Ever" when reading "best tag ever" ? I know I did. •-• 

Oh, and I really suggest you do this Rosie, 'cuz I really want to see your answers. :} 



live, laugh, and love.




never grow old,
never stop. 
be who you are are, 
don't let your image drop.
play, 
laugh,
love a lot.
never grow up,
always stay.
the way you are today. 

never grow up. \\ live, laugh, and love.


Little Bird

Little Bird - ED Sheeran 

I don't know about you, but I love this song. 
I was listening to it all last week AND I could not stop singing it. O.o
well, I hope you like it as much as I do. :}

*sobs* WHY ED??!! WHYYYYY?!?!?! 

*cough* um, yeah. K. bye. 

yay & nay [ #4 ] | | unicorns, food, cats, rainbows. all that jazz.

:: yay ::

- going to the bookstore... heaven. 

- smiling and blushing... a lot.

- laughing like an idiot. 

- fangirling... A LOT. 

- Ed Sheeran... <3 

-watching Beautiful Creatures


- 50 followers!!!!!!!!!! Thank you all so much. <3 

THIS GIRL <333

:: nay ::

- when your brain is like "meh"

- so far behind in everything...

- pressure.

-being forgetful.

- sleepy...

- disliking yourself... a lot. 

- missing. wanting. needing...


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heyooooooo!!! So, guess what? Since I totally forget like my whole week ( sad, I know. ), I'm doing a... two in one post! Exciting, right? ;) Not really, but yeah.... 

This post was requested by Molly. Girl, you are amazing. <3 



|| UNICORNS ||

u·ni·corn [yoo-ni-kawrn]
noun
1.
a mythical creature resembling a horse, with a single horn in the center of its forehead: oftensymbolic of chastity or purity.
2.
a heraldic representation of this animal, in the form of a horse with a lion's tail and with a long,straight, and spirally twisted horn.




and apparently from this girl  ^ they are "so fluffy" . 

Fun Fact: they also "poop rainbows" 


|| FOOD ||

{ warning; delicious goodness coming ahead. } 

Food [ food ] 

noun
1.
any nourishing substance that is eaten, drunk, or otherwise taken into the body to sustain life,provide energy, promote growth, etc.
2.
more or less solid nourishment, as distinguished from liquids.
3.
a particular kind of solid nourishment: a breakfast food; dog food.

Is good.....



oh my gawsh. <3_<3  ( hehe, I did the picture extra large so I can tempt you. ;)


+Rose C  PIZZA FANDOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




...nutella...



STRAW TO DAH BERRY! 
now i'm starving...


|| CATS ||

Cat [ kat ]

noun
1.
a small domesticated carnivore, Felis domestica  or F. catus,  bred in a number of varieties.
2.
any of several carnivores of the family Felidae, as the lion, tiger, leopard or jaguar, etc.

AKA: GRUMPY CAT!



|| RAINBOWS ||

rain·bow [reyn-boh]

noun
1.
a bow or arc of prismatic colors appearing in the heavens opposite the sun and caused by
 their fraction and reflection of the sun's rays in drops of rain. Compare primary rainbowsecondary rainbow.
2.
a similar bow of colors, especially one appearing in the spray of a waterfall or fountain.


RAINBOW HAIR ROSIE!!!!!


Alright, I think that is about-- WAIT!

*sighs dreamily* Peeeeeeeeetaaaaa.... <3 

Okay, enough of my randomness. I hope you enjoyed this post! :) 

Until next time, 

peace.

" baby you a song, you make me wanna roll my windows down and cruise." <--- I have that song stuck in my head. 

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I love you, Kenzie. -Rosie

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